I’m so lucky to have my fiancé. He has his ups and downs as all humans do, with all human frailties. But, if I hadn’t seen it before which I have, then I definitely saw his dedication and commitment to me this past month. He made it to not one, not two, but 3 one of my shows. 3. He is so, amazing and supportive and he’s so dedicated and hardworking. I don’t want to ever give him up to anyone else because I’m so damn lucky to have him. He is the best man I’ve ever known besides my father of course who has always provided for his family because he knew that’s what god had intended for him to do. I love Matt. So much. I know I don’t show him as much as I should, and I wish I knew how. But I’ll prove to him that staying with me is worthwhile. He is so, amazing and so deserving of love more infinitely better than me. But I only pray god gives me the strength and ability to love him and be as amazing as he has been to me. He’s supportive, always by my side if not front of me to protect me, has always fed me and kept a roof over my head, given me a warm and comfy place to sleep and a place to call my own. He’s the one. And hopefully the one for me. He’s so beautiful and kind. In his own humanely way, he’s dirty and crude and sometimes very sexual, but that’s all the things that make him who he is. I’m proud of him, and all he has accomplished and all he will be and has been. He’s so talented and so incredibly… Sexy and wonderful. God, I’ve never been so lucky. And I never will be again and I have to cherish and treasure and praise him and take care of him and I will. Him and I, we are a team and he’s mine to care for and love. I’ve never been so damn blessed. Thank you god, thank you for everything that you’ve blessed my life with, especially my love who I get to wake up to and fall asleep to every night. I love you, Matt.
You are my true love and my soul. You understand my weird obsession for the theatre arts and you have supported me and now truly understand my home up on the stage. Besides you, that is my home. And I’m so lucky. God, I’ve never been so undeserving but I pray to you and pray that you give me the opportunity to cherish and keep what has been so loving to me so I may cultivate this wonderful relationship I’ve been blessed with. Thank you thank you.
All these things in your name lord god, amen.
last dress rehearsal tonight and tomorrow we open. oh so excited….